Thirsting for Conversation —Taking Action

Day 0: What does it take to ‘Just Do It?!’ … an Introduction

I’ve been failing miserably to stay consistent… or at least struggling.

Whether its my 10 Ideas-a-day or my Contemplations of a Strange Mind or my (re)Learning Ruby on Rails or Building out my Personal Site or my Holodeck or Project Underground or my video game … yeah .. got a lot of projects…i suppose that’s part of the problem… But I cant stand doing just one (or even two) at a time… not because I get bored… I just get stuck… I havent found my passion… And that is a hard thing to say…
I dont just mean ‘this is what I live for’ passion… I mean ‘I care enough about this to always do it no matter what’ passion…

Sure you learn passion from competence, but you also have to care about something enough to actually work on it long enough to become competent, and thus passionate.

I thought I had that… I thought I cared enough about Hovercars…. but apparently not; seeing that 10 years of childhood wonder has brought me nowhere… at least in terms of hard skills.

I still dont have a prototype, or even a real plan… perhaps Im just doubting myself again… or perhaps Im admitting what I should have long ago… that it was just a hobby, a thought experiment that engaged my mind, but not my craft.

They say ‘just do it’… but how do you that when you dont even know the first step? I likened it to standing in front of mile-high mountain, with nothing but sheer cliffs before you… so that ‘first step’ requires some kinda climbing gear or something that you have no idea how to get or tackle.

Perhaps Im being melodramatic… over estimating myself… taking myself too seriously.. delusional… blahblahblah… Doesnt really change my current (or past) perceptions…

I dont know…

All I know is that I need to keep moving… going forward… even if that looks like running in place… the action is whats important. Getting and staying in motion so that my muscles and thoughts and ambitions and commitment does not atrophy.

The problem is less about focus I think, and more about not yet having a system for consistent productivity. Long term focus.

So now I want to do something that will help me on multiple fronts. I have too many things to do to just ‘focus’ on one at a time… I have a lot of ambitions that I will achieve somehow, but I cant do that if I take it too slow.

Henceforth I will be posting ‘conversation starters’ in which share some ideas I had. I really need and want to discuss all these ideas in my head. So posing it as a conversation will be best. But it doesnt stop there.. I will also be posting a wireframe or design of some sort both to improve skills as well as flesh out these ideas a little more so that they are easier to visualize.

On top of all that, it will give me a constant and real encouragement to persist on creating my own tool for better online creativity….

All in one simple-enough format that Ive already built the habit for (albeit in atrophy).

This particular perhaps is not the best… likely most of these posts wont be very good… but I just really want to get my ideas out there, to talk with people on them, to see what others think, and to grow my skills… and the only way to do all that… is to grow.

So here goes.